=')

Oh Gina~
my dear housemate in 425 Veteran. hahar. she totally bet that i would marry this ONE PERSON. and she was so totally sure about it.
it's so queer, though. not that i don't have the slightest feeling that i would not; but i really don't think that person is .. my future spouse. LOL. it's FUNNY mans. cus how she's really SURE about it, i do not know why, but seriously. i personally do not think so.
some people are just better of friends, and i SO AGREE (=
and you know, recently i just really treasure my friendships so much more cus .. really,
friendships are precious.
AND i don't want to lose em, for anything! (:
I TREASURE YOU DUDES.
so anyways, we bet on THE WHOLE SET OF LIFESTUDY (GENESIS to REVELATION); GOLD BAR, HARD COVER.
so if i marry that person, i have to give her that set.
if i marry someone else, she has to give me (=
LOL.
she doesn't know what she's getting into.
HAHA.
dude. who can be more sure than the person who's in it?


('=

Oh Huisan~
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.
this girl, she was like "hello GIRL, how have you been?" with a funky # with @signet.com
hahar. i was like, "you are?"
and oh wells! MY DEAR HUISAN. you're so sweet dude.
WHICH, reminds me of US 3. the flower power. yes, we named our friendship.
Sarah-Huisan-Cindy
anws. hui hui, this is for you-- "hey, i don't want to be rose anymore =P" HAHA!
apparently, i like another flower now. HAHA.
email you soon, girl.

MY DEAR FROST and ICE,
you both cracked me up (=
i love checking my mail because of you, frost.
AND ice,
hanging out in borders without your call is NASTY. haha. (=

dough called me too. hahas. and apparently she's coming to LA! yay.
i asked her to make a guess of where i was at; and dude.
her first response was.

"blueberry's house?"

(-.-') DUDE. WHY ever SO?
hahar.
the only time i went was thanksgiving dinner.
the rest of the time i was only at his parking lot, offering my fresh baked cookies.

anw anw. blueberry's mum is coming this fridayy..
haha. dude. seriously. I LOVE HER.
and i believe she loves me too. haha =P well, i honestly like her. so much!
maybe cus she reminds me of my mum, too.
she has a mole on her chin, just like my mummy!
and she totally felt me when i told her i went to jay chou's concert alone. HAHA.
oh women, i love em.

i miss older people you know.
i love hanging out with older ones. im serious.

I MISS YOU ALL, and all the older ones. (=

ANWS.
why do guys like to call girls, "doll"?
"you're such a doll."
"you're the best doll."
"oh, poor doll~"

(-.-")
it's .. disgusting.

HAHA!

i don't like it eh.


what's nice to be called?
hrm...

"dear~"

korean tofu

trapped in a bittergourd; i was bitter. but somehow, i am now drowned in a pot of honeyy! (=
hahar. i'm glad.

life is back to normal.
even though it seems a little weird that i haven't been talking to jackfruit for a few days now.. hrm!
i guess it was a 'habit' in progress that i would chat my blahs away every so often with jack, but oh wells, can't depend on people that much, can we? (=
i'm so glad my emo days are finally fading.
on top of that unbearable weather los angeles has, the past few days had been.. HORRIBLE.
school.school.school. and of course, that one member of the body that made me.. (x_x) die.
hahar. that one member that exposed my shortage in love, and genuine care. that one member that literally made me TURN TO THE LORD, soooo much. hahar. that one member that made me 'murder', you know.. that one member that made me realize how hard it is to live on God's word, turning the other cheek..
sigh sigh!
life was PAINFUL! and 偏偏就没人可以诉苦to!! (>.<") Oh, so bitter~

anws. let me just get to my point.
i had dinner with blueberry today (:
hahar. i was way too lonely recently mans. i just need company. i need home. i need comfort.
so of course, i planned my days such that i can spend time with sprinkles, sisters, .. etc, and i realized, it has been a while since i hang out with blueberry; so therefore, today. haha. (=
was just a random question i asked thru text msg "eh. yao bu yao eat dinner tmr?"
yea. so we ate korean today (=
tofu tofu. kimchi. beef. dumplings. spice spice spiiiccccceee.

i'm so glad i have him as my good friend, really.
what would i do w/o all my friends?
after our dinner, we went groceries, just like we used to in the past. hahar.
simple things friends do, good memories to relive.
i'm glad our conversations still floww.
you know, the secret of all these is that.. i prayed.
like really.

before i text him, i prayed.
after i text him, i prayed.
before i meet him, i prayed.
when i see him, i prayed.
after everything, i still say my little prayers to God (:

haha. it was just a line or two where i say " lord, i give yongjae to you. use me to speak to him. give me the opportunity to dispense life into him."

today he held my morning revival book as he was navigating in my car. i hoped he had a peek. hahar. oh wells.
i really want him to know the Lord, really!!!!
i think he will be a much 'whole' person (=
seriously. he'll be.. so filled! so full of life! OH LORD! REMEMBER YONGJAE!

p/s: thank you, all you who beared with me(and misery)
(= love you guyyysss.

(-.-')

jackfruit is so 重色轻友!
有时候真的好气 eh .. 为什么凡是恋爱的人都那么不问不理~!!
哎. 算了. 只得忍耐一下,直到我找到爱 才能会好一点.

好不甘心!!

偏偏周围的朋友都有喜欢的人. 怎么搞得嘛..
几时轮到我 leh?

talked to chip and she told me about chip2(my another cousin) who's being chased by this person. OH WELLS!
dude. is it just me or whatt. !
不想恋爱!很想恋爱!超想恋爱!!!

)'= 主啊~!

sushi-to-crave-thursday

He.. resembles -- that man in the picture?
haha!
this place is reccomended by my friend stephanie (=
*credits credits.


sprinkles and i (:
the picture best explains our friendship

1/1000000000000th of all the fishes in the sea.

"yongjae's not the only fish, cindy,.. "

hustle bustle. i love small authentic restaurants (:

he's definitely that man in the picture. HA!

dish #1 Monk Fish Liver

MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE.

believe it or not, i made sprinkles love it, too.

she hated it, dude..

dish #2 Yellowtail Collar Bone

sprinkles: "yum.. *chews* omgg. yum.. "

me: " OMG, yarh.. *chews* so yum.. "

sprinkles: " yummmm! *chews* "

dish #3 Albacore Nigiri

dish #4 Sake Nigiri

-- the classic --
the all time favourite, for.. ever.

dish #5 Sea Urchin (Unni)

so good, man..

dish #6 Hamachi (yellowtail)

(=

this is why we love japanese food.

dish #7 xxxx Clam

sprinkles ordered this in place of squid.

dish #8 Scallop

"1 more order, please~!"

dish #9 Unagi (Fresh Water Eel)

our very last plate.

pinkberry in japantown.

isn't it pretty?

(=

one day i'm going to have my own 'precious dew'..

youtubing (x

due to peer pressure, the previous post has been removed.
anws.
here's a superrrrrrr hilarious video everybody should check out (=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kE5m2UUvPV4

college conference

where couples say, "i do".

'lovers of Christ'

apphia : " NOooo, you cannot die!"

=)



the kingdom of God, is the only thing worth of our lives.

enjoyments will follow.

the verb to fall

woke up early in the morning, getting all ready to .. apologize.
*ffwd* so what happened was, i got my orientation packet, and they will individually reschedule me for another 'orientation' in place of the one i missed (:
wow. amen. i didn't even have to explain myself, i just made a very formal, yet sincere apology, and she was totally happy of me coming by in person and all that. but oh wells, i just said "Thank You so much, it was really an honest mistake." hahar. so redundant, my statement it was. but yar. i felt good that i was honest about my little 'flaw' in remembering things.

bluuberry asked me: " hrm, what is considered as an unforseen circumstance that you can use as an excuse?"
and i said, "my memory."

hahar! (x

not funny, not funny. i know.

was really touched that he made an effort to wish me "Good Luck" in the morning of my 'doom-day'. oh wells. it sure make me notice him more, didn't it?
but why.
why is it such a challenge to fall in love?

who would i really fall for eventually, do you know? (:

someone who likes sushi/sashimi? - bluueb.
someone who plays guitar? - brothers.
someone who plays piano? - some brothers.
someone who loves photography? - bluueb.
someone who's asian? (HAHA) - asian boys.

lol.

someone who eats SPICY! - south east asian boys.
someone who can do math - engineers/businessmen
someone who's handy - handy men
someone who's not afraid of bugs - most men.

** someone who protects!!! - 大男人

lols. there are just so manyy, huh?
but when a person really fall hard for someone, he/she may not even live up to the 'expectations' but you just fall.
dude. i want to fall, mans.

FALL FALL FALL.

just like how everybody around me has fallen/ is falling, i want to fall!

so dudes, 等着瞧吧! (=
even if it means a few more years later..
we're all in this together~

Oh~ Life

我到底要什么呢?

if mummy was here, would i be better?

)'= or am i just craving for ibu's food?

OR, my heart to like yongjae once again?

jackfruit once told me to get someone much better than blueberry,
he said, "Cindy, you deserve a much better guy than yongjae."
hahar. but what irony cos he didn't think i would get married after my 2 years FTTA.
=P
don't know eh. was sad that i have to wait for that long, and even longer (acc to jack), to experience the blissfulness of being in love.
i do not know what's love.
i do not recognize what it's all about.
some people claimed they have it; some people said they felt it, some others mourned about it..
what exactly is, it?

i knew i once liked yongjae, alot. like, A lot.
but i know it isn't love. cos, Love (true love, that is) never goes away.
maybe cos i didn't 'love' yongjae with God's love.
you know, Love is nothing but God himself. (:
oh wells.
so to say, i have never really loved a man.
and, i've never been loved by any man, either.

Oh~ what life.

is it really too selfish to my dear one if i impulsively get into one right now for the sake of getting one?
someone in my vicinity; so i can call him out anytime to red mango?
drag him to my coffee bean studying?
be walked home at night?
enjoy his cooking?
be taken care of when immunity is low?
not always complain to mum that no one hugs me anymore?
stop being on the phone?
stop bugging people to stay on the line with me?
have door knocking surprises?
recieve roses at my door?
have someone say i look beautiful?

(=

Oh~ Life.

do i really have to wait until when i'm older? much older?
Frost and I talked alot on the phone these days (: hee.
and one thing we agreed is to SCREAM at our bridegroom's face,

"WHAT TOOK YOU SOOOOOOOOO LONGGGGGGGGG!!!!"

frost will slap him.
and i will kick his ***.
tee hee! (;

bluberry and i had a hilarious conversation this afternoon. lol.
seemed like we cracked up quite a sum today. hahar. on everything.
#1 he told me that one of his friends got married =P
er. yea. his friend our age- 20
wow. THAT is amazing eh. (-.-")
like seriously.
so we started talking about 'marriage' and basically the whole point was.
i'll get married after grad school.
oh wells, he said it isn't a good idea to 一边 study, 一边be occupied by wedding prep.
sigh! WHEN WILL I GET MARRIED! hahar.

actually, what impressed me was that when blueberry helped me calculate the years until i get married, he was like " 1 more year bachelors, 2 years church thing, 2 years grad sch, 1 year establish career, etc...", he totally included FTT! HAHAR. oh wells. it's nothing much when you look at it, but, i'm glad he knows i belong to the Lord, and that 2 years is totally my consecration to Him. (= anws.

bb: who showed you around Vancouver?
me: my friend.
bb: doesn't she have school and all?
me: yarh. finals next week somemore.
bb: then you 不是disturb her?
me: hahar. yah lorh. too bad lorh. HAHA.
it's my that good guy friend of mine btw.
bb: oh.
bb: how long have you not seen him?
me: er.. few months? HAHA. lol.
bb: in singapore?
me: no, he came down to LA for a church conference.
bb: i see.

lol.
hrm.

anwsss. i'm glad the miserable thoughts of bb totally vanished into thin air.
it's not like i'm still head over heels in love with yongjae, or even like him romantically or anything, but i can really say that right now, its all clear on my side.
i totally, have moved on from him eh (:
is it really too good to be true?
i don't believe it either, to how i can get over him so fast.
but yarhh.
i'm glad.
because i no longer see yongjae as my special someone like before..
not in that way, anymore..
it's really just because, i can't see him that way.
i don't know whether it's just a matter of 'moment', and that weeks down the road i will start feeling otherwise, but OH WELLS.

i can only ask Him to keep my heart (:
thank you Lord, for getting me through all these.

*ATTENTION* jackfruit: you can now officially cross out that 'prayer burden' of yj and me from your list. THANKS FOR PRAYING ALL THESE TIME! (:

my driver - Day 1

my driver - Day 2

my travel companions. jackfruit and sprinkles.

this girl is HILARIOUS.

hahar (: she totally cracked me up.

that cd she's holding, is her album.

oh~ Vancouver, my dear Vancouver.. (: i miss you so.

updates will follow.

no salt (: but still tasty as ever

daddy sadness

there's nothing like my Christ.

i stood up and shared today (: i was simply.. overflowing! haha. it's like.
"dang! i've kept it all for too long.. i just need to FREE my Christ!"
i thank Him that finally i have a chance to overflow my enjoyments of Christ.
well, even when it meant i had to ditch my korean class =P sigh*
it has been 2 weeks alreadyy. lord, isn't it a waste of $? ):
i missed last week's cos of florida trip.
i missed today's cos of the welcome back meeting.

lord!
어 트 게?!!
( o-te-ke ) : how!

i felt better though, after releasing Christ (:
hehe. even though today my feelings were made "down" by my father.
apparently he just found out that i'm going to canada on a SCHOOL WEEKEND,
and he was pissed. literally, mad.
O Lord. I do not have peace to go anymore, but after all that hassles: plane tickets, visas, etc..
i really do not want to forfeit it all~!

I was totally convicted, like, really. That pang of guilt not only stayed in my tiny little conscience; but it occupied my mind. I feel so inadequate as a daughter, I don't know why.
The words that came out of my father's mouth today totally convicted me.
He said, "Loe bener bener boros." (you're really spendthrift)

#1 he thought i would at least go there for a week; and he got the SHOCK of his life that it's only a weekend trip.

#2 school started. "cindy. what are you thinking!"

sigh. i have nothing to say, but, forgive me lord, and i will repay him with good grades this quarter.
i really want to pick up a part time job, but, i'm afraid it might affect my studies this 1/4.. and i really don't wanna risk it. ah~!
and my ambitious/demanding inner being just would not let me go!

#1 i'm going to pick up my piano skills.
#2 i'm going to continue with my korean class.
#3 i'm going to take a dance class.
#4 i'm going to attend UCLA's spring singing contest ("UCLA idol")
#5 spring fun- magic mountain/six flags
#6 spring fun- las vegas
#7 college conference
#8 summer training


='(

am i really too much?